In my 20s, learning lessons from all the BS that life throws at me…
The sun rises on my skin
Eyes squint to see what’s illuminated
The whisper of the palm trees,
talking with the wind
Birds chirping their freedom,
Communicating early morning plans
All combined together
to create the setting for
a lovely day
Thinker.
Lost in the clouds.
Grounded in the truth.
Yet, what is my truth?
In search and hurry for the me
I’m meant to be,
but patience is what I keep
going back to to be the best me.
Second guess everything!
But it’s all love.
Love is everything.
Love. Is. Everything.
One day,
the moments will be present.
Constant battle with
the past, present, and future.
Never understand who
wins until later.
But that’s the beauty of life
and hindsight…
I do not need to understand everything.
Yes, that frustrates me, but
I know it to be true.
Light.
You’ve found shelter in the
depths of my soul
Somehow protected from
the inclement weather from
my clouds of depression
You’re flooding me with love
I’ve needed to end this drought
Never sent for you,
Yet here you are.
My confidant,
My friend,
My soulmate.
Passing through
somebody’s everyday
Exploring what
you might not say
Tears nesting above bags
screaming to be released
Fogginess pressing down my frontal lobe
Hoping to clear with each crash of the ocean
Oh, finally, finally the sun overpowers my worries
Salty air slaps away my frown
Temporary danger to remind me that I’m alive.
Heartbeat pumping in my throat,
Waiting to be replaced with your loving.
Longing for this moment with our names marked on it,
Firmness in every touch to solidify this reality…
Hair pulling, ass grabbing, bite marking…
Exhales with fewer spaces in between to eventually create elongated sigh…
Been waiting to exhale
Burning away the bullshit of life
Discovering life’s beauty
With each lick that shivers your spine.
Kisses, the only currency in our world.
Needs and wants blurring together…
Heat of our bodies creating blurred lines,
No time to feel empty
When your desire is overflowing.
Biting the inside of my lip to bite back my beast.
Anything hard, it’s my mission to make soft.
Anything wet, it’s my job to mop…
Probably causing more mess.
Filth peaks my interest…
The feline in me believing my tongue is cleaning.
Your motives irrelevant
As long as I believe my thirst is quenched.
Never one to beg,
Rarely pleased myself
Yet enjoying each second of the ride.
The more you know me
The less you’ll be aroused
Silence about me is key
To all of our chemistry.
There are holes within me that no man nor woman can fill.
Yet I damn near confuse the heat felt from your love as my completion…
When really what I feel with you is validation for me to repair what I’ve put off.
Your love doesn’t heal me… it doesn’t possess that power to fix me.
No matter how elevated we get in the clouds when we spend time together,
Your intent to save me will never equate to you being my Savior.
I can cry a million tears in your arms,
But those tears will never transform into the living water that heals my soul.
For we are both mortals, intentions pure, but weak with flesh.
Even though you can never save me,
you have that natural power to encourage me…
Encourage me to find the answers within myself to heal…
encourage me to continue to spread the love of God that flows through me…
encourage me to get a step closer on my path of righteousness…
encourage me to repair the patches of my soul,
so that I may receive fulfillment instead of emptiness from leaks.
Really that’s what love is.
Not to fix me.
Not to heal me.
Love is so powerful it encourages me to fix and heal myself.
That first kiss will let me know…
how deep I can go
where the boundary begins
what to do next.
Lower and lower my touches will go…
Warmer and warmer your body will go…
Closer and closer our vibes will approach…
Louder and louder our moans will grow…
Touches so precious…
Praying feelings don’t fill me
Only satisfaction covering.
Skeptical to approach your thoughts
Rather your body speak
Give your mind a vacation
Allow your soul to be pleased through touch
Right is this moment
Wrong is any analysis
Your touch on my neck
Holding my breath to anticipate what’s next
Love, the silent attendee
Lowkey in the air
Unlocking unknown destination
Releasing irrelevancy
Floating, whispering,
Acknowledging, wimpering,
Validating, submissing,
Time finally captivating
Seeking answers or
Distracting my mental
Either or is a satisfaction
Simply enhancing existence
Look, your time would be better spent with me.
Forget work.
Forget priorities.
Forget obligations.
Forget time, with me.
I know what you need because I need it too.
I know what you like because I like it too.
So come on.
You will be okay.
Spend time with me.
Show me what I see in your eyes.
Do what is in your mind…with me.
(If there were no negative consequences, would you join me without hesitation?)
You would enjoy our time together, which may be your fear.
Sometimes I think you hesitate because you know deep down that you would enjoy yourself in a whole new way if you let go of your inhibitions with me… and that is one of your biggest fears. That is what keeps you up at night. That is what makes you feel guilty even though you haven’t even done anything. The fact that you know this to be true is what keeps you questioning your every action around me.
Well I don’t want to be your source of guilt or restriction…
I want to be your friend in fun.
I want to be your leader of peace…
your explorer of self…
your co-captiain in experiencing joy.
See are you ready for the honesty
About this reality
That you might not see
That uncovers this “you and me”?
We share the need to always inspire
Lifting each other’s moods satisfies our desire
Constantly stroking your ego
In order to tame your inner hoe
The attention you get at home
Not enough to stop your eyes from the roam.
But you’re not the only guilty party
My motives not 100% hearty
I have a pattern of wanting what I can’t possess
The power of temptation, my biggest turn-on, I confess.
And maybe I enjoy the attention you provide
To the little girl in me I try to hide
The limited care you bless me with
May be enough for me to prolong this myth
And maybe the main reason for my love for you
Has to do with the pain you own too.
At the end of the day I just want you to heal
I want to be the reason you start to feel…
Feel something besides the crushing weight of this life
But common sense reminds me that’s reserved for your wife
Your better has become my worse
Unrequited love seeming to be my curse.
Attracted to the taken
With the vibe of forsaken
Sacrificing myself to be your vacation
From the day-to-day stagnation
Masquerading as your #1 fan
But really, do I give a damn?
Please don’t misunderstand what I’m saying
Just understand it’s a game we’re both playing
See we both get a thrill from the power trips
Each one ignited from the slickness out of our lips
Knowing you can turn me on with a look
Then every word I say gets you caught on my hook
The passion that blazes behind your eyes
The fuel to the fire between my thighs
The depth of your moans chilling my spine
The arch of my back got you ready to dine
Exchanging a laugh is our orgasm on PG
Whispering in my ear is the path to our ecstasy
I give, you take
Back and forth, no break
Losing our breath from a simple conversation
Challenging my thinking is your best form of penetration
You’re the release I never knew I needed
I’m that siren in your head that’s now seeded
You’re fun, you’re outstanding
I’m chill, never demanding
But keep in mind what this is
Two wounded souls handling our biz…
Mild and Free 