mental health – Mild and Free

Certainty

March 19, 2023Tagged depression, friends, inevitable, life, love, mental health, mind, poetry, relationships, romance, satisfaction, smile, society, soul, thirst, thoughtsLeave a comment

If anything is possible,

then why are you inevitable?

With so much unknown,

why is my love for you certain?

Although you never consume me,

why do I thirst for you?

While I search for satisfaction,

why do you appear in my mind?

After a long day,

why does your touch seem to be my pain reliever?

Whenever I’m lost in you,

why do I tend to find myself?

Even though we live in a society where

I always comes before u,

why are you my priority?

In order for me to completely exhale,

why does it require me to expose my soul to you?

Once I look into your eyes,

why do I automatically smile?

As I continue to live,

why do I desire to know you better?

Love on the Beach

December 22, 2022Tagged beach, depression, family, life, love, mental health, poem, poetry, relationships, thoughts, timeLeave a comment

The love I ache with,

matching the consistency

of the ocean’s wave.

Peace overtaking my mind,

watching you be the beauty God intended.

Sigh of relief

that life can be

this fulfilling and

full of love.

My Chemical X

November 1, 2022Tagged best life, depression, ingredients, inner peace, joy, life, love, mental health, peace, poetry, thoughts, timeLeave a comment

Peace, joy, love is within

Need to unlearn some lessons

to uncover my inner peace

Need to divorce from fears to expose my joy

Need to validate myself to access my love

These ingredients and action steps

form the best me.

The Beginning of a Lovely Day

June 28, 2022Tagged depression, friends, life, love, lovely day, mental health, poem, poetry, thoughts, time, wake upLeave a comment

The sun rises on my skin

Eyes squint to see what’s illuminated

The whisper of the palm trees,

talking with the wind

Birds chirping their freedom,

Communicating early morning plans

All combined together

to create the setting for

a lovely day

Dear you…

June 13, 2022Tagged admiration, being, depression, essence, friends, instincts, joy, letter, life, love, mental health, pain, relationships, thoughts, timeLeave a comment

Dear you,

You are good. Your essence, your being, your instincts provide me with a warmth that I was unsure I could ever feel.

Yet your pain, your experiences of disappointment, your memories of betrayal inhibit the pure joy we can experience with each other.

Being with you is right. Spending time out of my life with you is worth majority of my time. Yet trust is needed to be ourselves within the moments we are in each other’s presence.

You are enough for the presence of my joy.

Release those other thoughts so that our connection can be so powerful that our breaths are taken away.

Know me fully…get to know all of me so you can understand how strong our connection really is.

Admiration is the initial steps, but understanding and acceptance is the key to unlocking the magic we can create.

Secret wishes I’m jotting in hopes the atmosphere solidifies them in our next encounter.

With sincerity,

Your friend

In Search of the Light in Me

June 7, 2022June 7, 2022Tagged battlefield, beauty, clouds, depression, friends, hindsight, life, light, love, mental health, patience, poetry, self confidence, self esteem, self love, thoughts, time, truthLeave a comment

Thinker.

Lost in the clouds.

Grounded in the truth.

Yet, what is my truth?

In search and hurry for the me

I’m meant to be,

but patience is what I keep

going back to to be the best me.

Second guess everything!

But it’s all love.

Love is everything.

Love. Is. Everything.

One day,

the moments will be present.

Constant battle with

the past, present, and future.

Never understand who

wins until later.

But that’s the beauty of life

and hindsight…

I do not need to understand everything.

Yes, that frustrates me, but

I know it to be true.

Light.

Shelter in the Depths of My Soul

April 23, 2022April 23, 2022Tagged confidant, depression, drought, friend, friends, life, love, mental health, poetry, relationships, shelter, soul, soulmate, thoughts, timeLeave a comment

You’ve found shelter in the

depths of my soul

Somehow protected from

the inclement weather from

my clouds of depression

You’re flooding me with love

I’ve needed to end this drought

Never sent for you,

Yet here you are.

My confidant,

My friend,

My soulmate.

On the Beach

April 8, 2022April 8, 2022Tagged anxiety, beach, depression, hope, life, love, mental health, poetry, relationships, thoughts, time, vacation, worriesLeave a comment

Passing through

somebody’s everyday

Exploring what

you might not say

Tears nesting above bags

screaming to be released

Fogginess pressing down my frontal lobe

Hoping to clear with each crash of the ocean

Oh, finally, finally the sun overpowers my worries

Salty air slaps away my frown

My Inner Beast

February 5, 2022Tagged beast, depression, erotic, erotic poetry, erotica, friends, inner beast, life, love, lust, mental health, poem, poetry, relationships, sex, thoughts, timeLeave a comment

Temporary danger to remind me that I’m alive.

Heartbeat pumping in my throat,

Waiting to be replaced with your loving.

Longing for this moment with our names marked on it,

Firmness in every touch to solidify this reality…

Hair pulling, ass grabbing, bite marking…

Exhales with fewer spaces in between to eventually create elongated sigh…

Been waiting to exhale

Burning away the bullshit of life

Discovering life’s beauty

With each lick that shivers your spine.

Kisses, the only currency in our world.

Needs and wants blurring together…

Heat of our bodies creating blurred lines,

No time to feel empty

When your desire is overflowing.

Biting the inside of my lip to bite back my beast.

Anything hard, it’s my mission to make soft.

Anything wet, it’s my job to mop…

Probably causing more mess.

Filth peaks my interest…

The feline in me believing my tongue is cleaning.

Your motives irrelevant

As long as I believe my thirst is quenched.

Never one to beg,

Rarely pleased myself

Yet enjoying each second of the ride.

The more you know me

The less you’ll be aroused

Silence about me is key

To all of our chemistry.

Learning Love

January 17, 2022January 17, 2022Tagged depression, free verse, friends, healing, learning, life, love, mental health, poem, poetry, relationships, thoughts, time, writingLeave a comment

There are holes within me that no man nor woman can fill.

Yet I damn near confuse the heat felt from your love as my completion…

When really what I feel with you is validation for me to repair what I’ve put off.

Your love doesn’t heal me… it doesn’t possess that power to fix me.

No matter how elevated we get in the clouds when we spend time together,

Your intent to save me will never equate to you being my Savior.

I can cry a million tears in your arms,

But those tears will never transform into the living water that heals my soul.

For we are both mortals, intentions pure, but weak with flesh.

Even though you can never save me,

you have that natural power to encourage me…

Encourage me to find the answers within myself to heal…

encourage me to continue to spread the love of God that flows through me…

encourage me to get a step closer on my path of righteousness…

encourage me to repair the patches of my soul,

so that I may receive fulfillment instead of emptiness from leaks.

Really that’s what love is.

Not to fix me.

Not to heal me.

Love is so powerful it encourages me to fix and heal myself.