The love I ache with,
matching the consistency
of the ocean’s wave.
Peace overtaking my mind,
watching you be the beauty God intended.
Sigh of relief
that life can be
this fulfilling and
full of love.
Love on the Beach
Tag: time
My Chemical X
Peace, joy, love is within
Need to unlearn some lessons
to uncover my inner peace
Need to divorce from fears to expose my joy
Need to validate myself to access my love
These ingredients and action steps
form the best me.
The Beginning of a Lovely Day
The sun rises on my skin
Eyes squint to see what’s illuminated
The whisper of the palm trees,
talking with the wind
Birds chirping their freedom,
Communicating early morning plans
All combined together
to create the setting for
a lovely day
Dear you…
Dear you,
You are good. Your essence, your being, your instincts provide me with a warmth that I was unsure I could ever feel.
Yet your pain, your experiences of disappointment, your memories of betrayal inhibit the pure joy we can experience with each other.
Being with you is right. Spending time out of my life with you is worth majority of my time. Yet trust is needed to be ourselves within the moments we are in each other’s presence.
You are enough for the presence of my joy.
Release those other thoughts so that our connection can be so powerful that our breaths are taken away.
Know me fully…get to know all of me so you can understand how strong our connection really is.
Admiration is the initial steps, but understanding and acceptance is the key to unlocking the magic we can create.
Secret wishes I’m jotting in hopes the atmosphere solidifies them in our next encounter.
With sincerity,
Your friend
In Search of the Light in Me
Thinker.
Lost in the clouds.
Grounded in the truth.
Yet, what is my truth?
In search and hurry for the me
I’m meant to be,
but patience is what I keep
going back to to be the best me.
Second guess everything!
But it’s all love.
Love is everything.
Love. Is. Everything.
One day,
the moments will be present.
Constant battle with
the past, present, and future.
Never understand who
wins until later.
But that’s the beauty of life
and hindsight…
I do not need to understand everything.
Yes, that frustrates me, but
I know it to be true.
Light.
Shelter in the Depths of My Soul
You’ve found shelter in the
depths of my soul
Somehow protected from
the inclement weather from
my clouds of depression
You’re flooding me with love
I’ve needed to end this drought
Never sent for you,
Yet here you are.
My confidant,
My friend,
My soulmate.
On the Beach
Passing through
somebody’s everyday
Exploring what
you might not say
Tears nesting above bags
screaming to be released
Fogginess pressing down my frontal lobe
Hoping to clear with each crash of the ocean
Oh, finally, finally the sun overpowers my worries
Salty air slaps away my frown
My Inner Beast
Temporary danger to remind me that I’m alive.
Heartbeat pumping in my throat,
Waiting to be replaced with your loving.
Longing for this moment with our names marked on it,
Firmness in every touch to solidify this reality…
Hair pulling, ass grabbing, bite marking…
Exhales with fewer spaces in between to eventually create elongated sigh…
Been waiting to exhale
Burning away the bullshit of life
Discovering life’s beauty
With each lick that shivers your spine.
Kisses, the only currency in our world.
Needs and wants blurring together…
Heat of our bodies creating blurred lines,
No time to feel empty
When your desire is overflowing.
Biting the inside of my lip to bite back my beast.
Anything hard, it’s my mission to make soft.
Anything wet, it’s my job to mop…
Probably causing more mess.
Filth peaks my interest…
The feline in me believing my tongue is cleaning.
Your motives irrelevant
As long as I believe my thirst is quenched.
Never one to beg,
Rarely pleased myself
Yet enjoying each second of the ride.
The more you know me
The less you’ll be aroused
Silence about me is key
To all of our chemistry.
Learning Love
There are holes within me that no man nor woman can fill.
Yet I damn near confuse the heat felt from your love as my completion…
When really what I feel with you is validation for me to repair what I’ve put off.
Your love doesn’t heal me… it doesn’t possess that power to fix me.
No matter how elevated we get in the clouds when we spend time together,
Your intent to save me will never equate to you being my Savior.
I can cry a million tears in your arms,
But those tears will never transform into the living water that heals my soul.
For we are both mortals, intentions pure, but weak with flesh.
Even though you can never save me,
you have that natural power to encourage me…
Encourage me to find the answers within myself to heal…
encourage me to continue to spread the love of God that flows through me…
encourage me to get a step closer on my path of righteousness…
encourage me to repair the patches of my soul,
so that I may receive fulfillment instead of emptiness from leaks.
Really that’s what love is.
Not to fix me.
Not to heal me.
Love is so powerful it encourages me to fix and heal myself.
Quarantine Bae
In a fight to be that somebody for you
Never stopped to think if I even wanted you to be my somebody
The focus always on what you needed
Ignoring what I really needed
More you, not I is what made our we work
A recipe that tasted good to me but had bitter aftertaste
Your satisfaction guaranteed
An IOU, your gift to me
Receipts of genuine admiration
Enough to provide reminiscing sensation
Our memories a treasure that only our minds have the map to
Appreciative of our time even if it came with an expiration date
Knowing there was an end allowed for freedom of self
Not afraid to show you all of me
Just worried which part made you flee
Wish I can send you a survey
So I can learn from my mistakes
Your feedback is always appreciated
The reason I committed
Good souls greeting each other
For a period of time
Cementing memories of lessons and joy
Mild and Free 